Sure, working from home is the dream. Imagine waking up a few minutes before your work; you don’t have to leave your house and put up with EDSA traffic; you don’t have to suffer long lines in LRT/MRT or trying to get hold of buses, and you don’t have to face office chismisan and issues. The list goes on.
Every time someone asks me where I work and tell them that I work from home, they would always say, “Wow, buti ka pa.” or “Pangarap ko yan!” Thankful that I get to work from home; this was my goal when I graduated. There are so many pros about working from home, but one thing that’s not good about this? Social life = zero.
I’ve been in this kind of work environment for a year now, and I must say that I have had a fair share of moments telling you how sad and lonely working alone can be. For 1 week, I only get a chance to go out, see the outside world, and hang out with other people twice or thrice. I became socially awkward; I don’t know how to do small talks anymore, and more reserved and shy.
Mentally speaking, it’s awful. The emptiness and sadness in my heart when I stay inside my room long enough is growing and beating me. The isolation – the feeling of just talking to your friends over the internet and see how the world evolves thru Facebook or Instagram. If only I could rip off this sadness in me, I would.
There will be days when I couldn’t take the sadness any longer. All I can do is cry, lie in bed, and apologize to my bosses for being a little unproductive for a couple of days or a week. There will be moments when even I couldn’t say what’s wrong with myself. One more question how am I doing, I’m going to break down.
But, I still believe that whatever is this I’m going through will come to pass, this will end.
In the meantime, I’ll use this moment to fix my eyes on Jesus, the pioneer, and perfecter of faith. I will use this moment to rest in His presence. I’m thankful for this particular point in my life when God reminded me the truth: He is aware of my situation, and I can hold on to Him knowing that He will restore my hope and strength.